Do I Have a Purpose?

"The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; Your love, O Lord, endures forever -- do not abandon the works of Your hands." - Psalm 138:8 (NIV)

I was at a girlfriend's conference at church yesterday so I didn't get the chance to post this blog.

I have to be honest and say I don't know what my purpose in life is. I may have said it before but it's still true. Why am I here? What does God want from me? At one of the leadership/personal growth seminars I've taken, the whole point was to find my purpose....I didn't. I thought I was going to have this BIG reveal, this Ah Ha! moment, when I just knew, deep down, what I am meant to do here on earth.......didn't happen.

I do know one thing, though. God's purpose for me isn't finished. How do I know that? I'm still here! He hasn't called me home to heaven yet. I woke up this morning, living, breathing, thinking, feeling. He still has work for me to do. Even though I don't know exactly what that work is...God knows. He will reveal it to me in His time. I don't have a clear picture of the direction my life is supposed to go in, but I am at peace with it. I know He created me for a reason. I know my future is in His hands.

Unfortunately, I try to control that future myself. I make plans....that's who I am. I'm a planner. I make lists for EVERYTHING. My husband and kids will vouch for that. I can't grocery shop without planning what our meals are going to be and making a list. I can't go on a vacation without researching our destination and planning what we're going to see and do. I'm not a "by the seat of my pants" type of girl. I want to know ahead of time what is going to happen, where I'm going to go, what I'm going to do, how I'm going to do it. But, God, with His wonderful sense of humor, loves to throw monkey wrenches into my best laid plans. He loves to remind me that HE is in control, that my plans, my choices, may not be what's best for me. He knows what is.

He promises He will fulfill His purpose for me....says so here in Psalms. He created me; I am the work of His hands and He won't abandon me....again, says so right here in this verse. My job is to be at peace with my life, to be patient until He reveals His full purpose to me. In the meantime, I am going to continue to serve Him where I'm at, pray for His will to be done in me and trust in His timing to show me what my purpose is. And He will!!

"As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit." - Emmanuel Teney

Dear God, I know you have a purpose for my life. I trust in You to reveal it to me when You know I'm ready. Let me live each day until then for You, in peace, in faith and in love. May Your light shine through me onto every person I come into contact with. I commit my life and my plans into Your hands. Do with them as You will. In Jesus' name, Amen.